Christ died on the cross. He paid the price we never could. Its not through our merit we are saved but His. He died on the cross for me as an individual and He knew that I was weak and He knew my sin. That is a truth that should replay over and over. We do not have any part in our salvation, we love our sin and without His intervening hand we would never accept Him. Why do I feel so inadequate? Why does my lack of ability to understand the Word, to speak confidently, why does it bring me down so much. Is it a right feeling or wrong? My movement in His ministry will never be from me but only God working in me and giving me the strength to move. Me being weak and Him still using me if He does gives Him more glory. Although I know I need to strive to do everything excellently espcially being used in His purposes. But is this feeling of inadequacy a motivation to learn more and challenge myself more? Or is it to fall back and stop biting off more than I can handle, ask God to work in me and grow me before I start challenging myself?